Is this how it starts?

An intermittent, dull, throbbing pain in the nuts. Is this how it starts? It was different for a friend. In his case the pain came on sudden and sharp and by the end of the day he was minus a ball. Better minus a ball than minus a life, I guess.

Am I the only one who thinks that there's a very real chance I won't make it through the day alive? When did that start? Oh, I know, but after nearly twenty years you'd think thoughts like that would diminish. They didn't. In fact, they're more intense than ever now that I'm on the other side of middle age. Well, when it happens, no one will be able to say, "He never saw it coming" hee hee hee hee hee.